I’m confident our teacher worked hard to help her early childhood parents through the distance learning curve last spring.
I also think our school genuinely listened to parent feedback and tried, with all their might, to meet everyone’s needs for this upcoming year.
But we still decided to leave. And now I’m a homeschooling parent.
To be honest with you, I’ve always wanted to homeschool but was scared I’d fail Archie. Then, I realized coronavirus was scarier and that fear ripped the bandaid for me. It also helped that my son attended a private school. We were under contract to return but when the school offered to release its parents, we jumped.
So instead of back to school shopping, I shopped curriculum. This week I dove in and began with the journaling the planning guide encouraged me to do.
“What are your own greatest challenges as you contemplate the next year of teaching?”
I responded, “Balancing Thanks, Julia and Rover-Time with Archie’s homeschooling, his younger sibling, and my basic needs for self-care while navigating a global pandemic. I also want more time with my parents now, to support my Mom and be near my Dad while he’s fighting cancer.”
I’m still coming to terms with that. And so much more. I feel so sad for so many reasons these days. Learning to homeschool because of a global pandemic just isn’t one of those reasons to be sad.
We’re going to be ok.
Archie’s not going to bring something home that will spread to the others. He’s not going to carry something into my parents home and affect his grandparent’s health. We’ll have peace of mind and we will be able to be together this upcoming school year. And that’s all I want out of this horrible time, I want my Mom and Dad.
I hope this decision brings our home some consistency. There’s not much anyone can control these days. Knowing Archie’s kindergarten year will go with less interruption than we experienced at the start of this pandemic, brings me a little peace and I need all the peace I can get right now.
In closing, I’ll add this reminder: whatever decision you make, it’s going to be ok. It’s going to be ok.